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Okay well I’m just gonna start off by saying this is gonna be a LONG update so bear with me here, Have you ever felt that everyone around you hated you? People dont want you being around them? Well this became reality alot of things are got out of hand, rumors are being spread to a point where a large part og my grade doesnt want me in the school, i get harassed daily, on facebook, and I get questioned by everyone in school, It’s a living hell I feel the best thing to do was to go to a new school with a fresh start, But no, My parents tell me to bare threw the rest of the year, Do you know how frusterating it is to hate yourself and know there are people around you who hate you too? I want to die. Literally I have nowhere else to go, My bestfriend is mad at me, the one person who I would always stick by me, I tried choking myself today afterschool in the girls bathroom with my scarf, Soeone came in and i quickly took it off my neck and left, later on my mom still saw there was a red mark all around my neck and asked me what happend and I simply told her I had no idea, I’m staying home tomorrow because the last 2 ddays in school have been a living hell, I feel like nobody will truly understand me ever, I dont know how long I’m going to last this year but at this rate, Not very long at all. I’ve decided to start writing on my tumblr everyday once a day and if something happens, I’ll give the link to my best friend, only because I trust him the most and he deserves the place in my heart where he is now, Ive been sober from cutting for about a month now, I cheated at one point because My mom, she always complains on how bad her life is and she doesnt see how bad that hurts be inside, who know where life will take me? It can get better or worse, I hanging on a string because I have the littles bit of hope left, But I know Im strong. And I KNOW I’m going to try my hardest to fight threw this, I need to get to sleep, I will right back when I wake up, Goodnight tumblr<3
(1 year ago)